i'm never sure whether or not to post this on the anniversary of the death of my daughter...i've decided to do it again this year for me and me alone. it is a sad, painful recollection of the day she died, as told 18 years later. it took a long time for me to put it all down into words and it was amazingly cleansing to do so. she is always in my heart and she guides me daily. still.
just a warning of sorts that it isn't pleasant. it is raw and it is real. it is a day in my life that changed everything i knew to be real and reshaped everything from that point forward. it is actually the story of the day that i realized i had no choice but to live my life - regardless of what obstacles were thrown into my path. we don't get to choose much of our way, but we do get the chance to change how we deal with things in our future.
to those who have never experienced this, may God allow you to continue on through your life without ever knowing it; to those who have experienced it - and i know way too many of you personally - know that you are never alone and that you actually were given an amazing gift. something that you may not be able to hold in your arms today, but something that will give you the single-most amazing moment yet to come.
miss morgan: december 22, 1990
2 comments:
Shawna,
I did not know that you lived through something like this and I don't know what to say. I sit here after reading your words and am crying. I can't imagine the grief or pain or loss you had to deal with and still deal with and all that I can find to say to you, as contrite as it sounds, is I am so sorry.
blessings,
I vividly remember reading this and how it touched me... made me cry... evoke memories of my own and I was in awe of your amazing talent of the written word ... and reading again today, nothing has changed - you're one incredibly brave and talented woman... we're so lucky to have our very own angels. Missing you loads xx
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