FMR.

is it only in my life that you are awakened at 2:51 am by the periodic, yet incessant buh-BEEP of a smoke alarm, having lent your only ladder to an ex husband only to find that no object in your house is tall enough for you to reach the 10-some-places-12-fucking-foot-high ceilings in your house and even if you DID have your ladder you couldn't tell which of the 18,000 smoke alarms in your house is doing this horrid noise, which of course, follows you into every room in your house because they are ALL CONNECTED to each other, with each showing a solid green light, leading you to believe that the offending alarm in need of a battery change must be in fucking Timbuktu because you've checked every single one of them that you are aware of AND that the incessant bee-BEEP of the smoke alarm is exactly one-one-thousand-eight seconds apart AND that your whole body aches because you are sick and only want to sleep but can't because of the FUCKING SOUND, making you feel that a rusty ice pick to your left eye would be a welcome thing right now?

omg, please make it stuh-hah-hah-hahpppp

*LOSER ACKNOWLEDGEMENT* only because i am nothing, if not honest...c'mon, you knew it was coming.

it's 5:44, have been trying to sleep since 2, right?  just did another check of the smoke alarms only to realize that it was not, in fact a smoke alarm buh-BEEPing at me, but the house alarm telling me it needed to be reset. JHC i am an idiot. back to my not-so-warm-after-almost-4-hours bed to drift off to the sweet sweet silence that is now my home.

i am thankful...no, really i am.

ok, i bitch...alot.  which does not mean i am ungrateful for or blind to my many blessings.

just taking a minute out of my rantings to say that.  i really do know that i am blessed...i have an amazing and supportive family - immediate, extended, in-lawed, out-lawed...all of them.  i have an incredible assortment of friends - close, far away, real, imagined, whatever.  i have my health ( i know blahddy blah blah...but it's true).  i have had and continue to have love, encouragement, acceptance and support at every turn of my life.  i am one of the lucky ones, in so many ways and i want to thank God for the life i have been given...it's had it's trials, it's had it's tribulations (does anybody really even know what a tribulation is?) and it's had it's joys and successes.

really truly i could not ask for more. probably i will, of course, but my point is that i don't have to - i could die today and have lived, loved and experienced more than enough than one silly redneck girl could ever hope for.

peace and relaxation to you and all that you love, enjoy your day of thanks and hey...go packers, raiders, broncos and brett favre (sorry fleck, no can vikqueens do - MUAH)!

just to remind you, if you ever need it.

i so deeply appreciate the person that you are.   the depth of your goodness sometimes overwhelms me and simply floods me with love for you. with open arms you let me cry, you let me laugh, you let me love, you let me be and then you love me still.  you are God's gift to me and you are forever deep in my heart...i love you.