been a slightly effed up week...my guy has a wildfire close to his home and has been sitting in ready-to-fly mode for a couple of days now. he feels particularly stressed, as he has previously watched a home - and all of his belongings - burn to the ground. it appears that his home is safe, but he is still under evacuation orders...if he leaves to go to work, he will not be allowed back in. so he sits.
one of my close friends from jr high/high school had surgery yesterday - rather emergency, she found out about it a week ago - all is well as of now and she is supposed to be able to go home this afternoon. i worried for her for a few different reasons, mainly though because she was petrified that something bad would happen to her. she has a son that has just started kindergarten two weeks ago...that wasn't going well, and leaving him to stay in the hospital was weighing heavily upon her. as i said, that appeared to have gone as planned and i think i can rest easier as far as she is concerned. whew.
got a phone call from my mom yesterday about my gram's...last summer they discovered she has fluid building in her lungs. she went to the hospital a couple of times to have them drained and discovered a weak valve or some such crap and needed surgery. well, the bird is 89ish and a bit frail nowadays so they decided last summer that they would not operate on her and just monitor her recurring pneumonia as best they could. she's been quite good for about a year, but just went back into the hospital last week. they drained the fluid and released her. two days later, they will filling up again. they have now decided that the hospital trips are too hard on her and have agreed that they will monitor from the home, but not readmit her to the hospital. so...gram's isn't well. i called her today and i'm not sure she knew who i was for a bit. she sounded very weak and pretty out of it. talked to my mom who explained that she has been pretty drugged up this week. problem is my grams is 5 hours away from here...i'm not sure what to do. whether or not i should pull the kids out of school and drive up there to see her or wait for more news from my mom. ugh. my grams has been such a HUGE part of my life for as long as i can remember - it's some sad shit to say the least.
one of my kids has been having problems that i will not go into here...they involve "friends", school and people of a shitty ilk. the kind of people you do not want your children to know - ever. we're dealing with that on a day-to-day basis and i'm trying to not have nightmares involving worst case scenarios. have i mentioned in the last 20 minutes how badly i want my fat, innocent little babies back?
smaller, less significant issues include phone/house alarm/tiVo problems; car needs work done; yard work is - once again - out of control; girl's soccer season has started, and halloween is coming back. cripes why do i have to deal with this STOOPIT "holiday" every. single. year? ugh.
the good news is that i have food in the pantry, my man loves the shit out of my guts - regardless of the ridiculousness that is my life - and everyone is healthy. well, the kids are anyway - that is crucial and for that, i am grateful.
holy shit - did i get through that post without one f-bomb? wow...i am off my game.